i am writing this down here in hopes that it will seem as profound to me after i have had some sleep.

the thing that i want to learn how to do is that i want to learn how to expect to be treated in ways that i perceive as loving and caring by my nearest and dearest. i'm tired of expecting that i will have to ask for it.

it's good to know what you want.

it's good to be able to ask for it.

but i want to expect to not have to ask for it all the time.