it's 1am, and here i am writing this post. at the moment, it seems profound and important, which means in the morning there's a decent chance it will seem pretentious and weird.

but in the spirit of the rest of the post, i'm posting it anyhow.

here's the deal. there aren't any guarantees. love people anyway. they're worth it. take the chance. reach out. say hi i really like you, or, i'm scared to do this, or, i'm mad at you and here's why, or any number of other things. but say it.

it's easier not to. it's easier to just not mention it. it's easier to conceal things, or to pretend, or to not be present as yourself. it's so much easier.

but oh, what you lose.

for one thing, me. i won't put up with that shit once i recognize it for what it is.

but also, the rewards. loving other people. having them love you. having relationships that are built on how you feel about each other and what you and they want, instead of random guessing, misinterpretation, and misleading statements.

i'm single at the moment, but that's what i want in any future partner. someone willing to take that risk with me.

and now, to bed.